Being

I have been frustrated in not knowing what to focus on.  Do I focus on improving my finances first, look for other work to pay the bills or focus on my coaching, my health, love.  I know I want to leave my one part time job.  It is not fulfilling or even paying well.  I know I want to coach. I want to make theatre connections (I have a dream of a holistic theatre!) and supplement my coaching with theatre work. However, most importantly I want to finally connect with my soul mate and create a family/community. Work, though potentially fulfilling and creative has never been my main focus/goal/dream in life.  So what do I focus on?
Too often, work is what we have to focus on to pay our bills.  We feel secure and safe when these things are taken care of  and we are doing what society tells us to do.  However, the universe responds to how we feel and the emotions we radiate (everything is energy/vibration).  So if we feel like we are surviving that is what it sends back to us!  We often work hard and all it gets us is survival.  Is survival really what we dream about in this day and age?  Survival is not getting eaten by a lion or succumbing to the elements when you don't have a cave or fire.  We are here to grow, thrive, and create!  So I say BE.  When you are constantly trying to do this, do that, to make ends meet, to fulfill a job, to fit into society...etc, you are not being you.  You are not radiating the energy of your dreams and desires.  There is so much out there that is available to us but we don't connect with it because we are not being our true selves.  A being of love, peace, creativity, expansion... You can think of it this way as well...if all you can do is work your way through a maze with no lights, on a flat plane, you are aren't going to do very well or experience much.  But if you can feel the multidimensional universe you can rise above the maze, go below the maze, realize there is no matter only energy and go through the maze...so many more options.  Everything is energy.
So I realized that my focus should be what I want to feel and experience in this world.  The Universe can work out the details better than I can possibly image.  I keep trying to be clear about what I want but I'm getting flustered and uncertain about which dream to focus on in doing that.  So today I'm thinking, it won't hurt to improve my resume or keep my eyes open for others sources of income but I need to focus on how I want to feel; focus on the feelings I'm trying to achieve not the activities!  
Just another lesson in being over doing!